Overboard

Man Overboard

Drowning in a sea of my sorrow
wishing I had wings or some to borrow
My mind slowly clearing its contents right before me
I can see the times that made me become to what Ive come to be

I can see the sun off in the distance
changing shades like the state of my existence.
The most beautiful thing I know
is the last thing I want to let go.
submerged  into this world of the unknown
I find a place to call my home; alone.
if there was a time to smile, for sure it would be now
letting go of everything. Whats usually a monkey on the back in my case is a cow.

Everything is everything. Nothing can save me
as I drift downward in this deep blue sea
A school of fish swimming in a tornado of scales and gills fills the dark pools of my eyes
a vision so brilliant, so vivid, so pulchritudinous...it could make a man underwater cry

a large river of shadows consume me as if I had an acquired taste
like an octopuses tentacles, the darkness pulls me into its embrace.
I can no longer hear my heartbeat
& feel the warmth of blood rushing through my hands
all sound has gone but a constant wave of ambiance

I cant feel feelings. I no longer know if I am alive
acquiesce to the idea of trying to survive.


 Up till this point that is going against everything I know
the instinct of never letting up & even when I do, I dont.



just what am I? who am I?


This feels like the end!
but I felt this way yesterday

...& here I am again.

...overboard...